06/01/2025 - I'm going to move by the end of February.

Hello readers,

Just realized it's been three weeks since I last posted on my blog. Things have moved, my plans have changed once again, and I'm coming back with a clearer idea of what I wish for this new year ahead. First, I'd like to state that I am not going to use any ChatGPT or AI on my blog anymore. I only used it a few times to rearrange some sentences, but even then, it came more from laziness than actual necessity.

I want this blog to remain 100% me, just like with the rest of my life. Since the 3rd of January, I’ve started a challenge for the next 90 days. I am remaining sober, meditating, doing physical activity every day, keeping track of my income/expenses, reading one book a week, and sharing all of it with a video a day on TikTok. If you want to follow my journey: @louforeal.

I have no real idea or expectations for where it will lead me, to be completely honest with you. I just have a desire to share, as you can imagine, with this blog in the first place. It's a thirst I’ve had forever, like a need for something I still don't understand to this day. But I choose to believe in it and trust the process. I've tried YouTube videos, a reality TV show, writing a book, creating this blog, and now moving toward shorter video content. It will make sense in the end, as always.

The other big news is that I'm going to move by the end of February. I decided this while my long-lasting friend Johana visited for New Year's. During 2024, I thought of moving many times, but always with the feeling that there was an underlying reason behind it. I wanted to run away from people and situations here. Right now, I feel stable and grounded. I’ve created real and meaningful relationships, established myself in town, and found purpose in my daily life.

And the feeling still remains. I desire a change of scenery, movement, and growth. Verbier is, and will remain, a place I'll continue to visit, but it's too small for my big ambitions. I'm starting to feel trapped and secluded. Of course, it's all about perception. What was once my little precious nest is now a golden prison. I think this is what happens when I expand.

I saw myself getting out of my comfort zone here, changing, understanding deeper layers of my identity, and learning personally, but especially socially. This proximity with people has been as rewarding that it has been challenging. I experienced disappointments, hardships, and heartbreaks like never before. But I transformed through this process. I see beauty through the pain.

And now it's time to move on, to Amsterdam, hehe. A place I’ve visited a few times and always found a great attraction to. I wouldn't say I'm a city girl at heart, but there’s something about the canals, duality and extremes of this place, open-mindedness, and overall aesthetic that I like. It doesn’t have to be deeper than this. If I am curious about it, that’s enough to give it a try. Same for all other areas of my life, I guess.

It makes me think of something I’ve reflected on recently: how I encounter a lot of people who have linear thinking and a hard time understanding paradoxes. Because in order to embody myself fully, I had to make peace with non-duality; the fact that I am made of opposites. A reflection of the world in general, with electrons, binary codes, and "the good and bad." I feel deeply while thinking simply. I care fully while detaching easily. I exist reasonably while reasoning playfully.

And it always shocked me that some people could have an idea and image of myself so far from how I view me. But it makes sense. I experience myself with no boundaries and judgments; I accept all of my truth, even the things I don't like witnessing. And I never believe that I’m done, that now I know everything that I am. Because I’m evolving, changing, morphing constantly. And in order to understand this concept in others, it's important to understand within first.

With love, Loune.